Time for a little thinking-out-loud: Misbehaving.net
has a recent post about their frustrations with other's perspectives of
their site and what they are attempting to do. I commented there, but I
thought I'd expand a bit on it here. Here's what I posted:
Several years ago myself and a few friends decided to put up a web site
(this was long before we discovered weblogs) about our perspectives as
"third wave feminists". Mind you, it was only our own personal
observations and experiences on everything from politics to getting a car
fixed. Even so, people still thought that (a) we were trying to represent
every other woman or all feminists and (b) that we were an official
organization with headquarters, dues, scholarships, internships and jobs.
It was an uphill battle to make people recognize that we could come
together and speak about these things as unique individuals, on a daily
basis, for the heck of it, interacting without having to turn our
interaction into an NGO and anonymizing and generalizing our words and
perspectives so that they could be applied broadly.
The site I was talking about was 3rdwwwave. Alana, Cindy, Kim, Janis,
Sidra and myself came up with this site in 1996 when we realized that we
were just emailing each other REAMS of stuff, ranting and exploring all
kinds of issues from a post-1970's feminist experience and perspective. We
decided that, heck, it'd be great to just slap all our thoughts up onto a
web site and let others read what we were thinking as well.
What I've come to learn, over the last 15 years, is that any time women
bring their expository, exploratory, and opinionated GROUP CONVERSATIONS
out into the view of the public, there will be one of at four possible
reactions:
1) Why don't you include men? Aren't you being unfair by not letting men
join your organization?2) How dare you represent all women. You're doing it badly. You don't
speak for X, Y and Z.
3) Where are your headquarters? Do you have scholarships? Can I have a
job? I'd like to join your organization!
4) Your scholarship is flawed. Where is your theory? You can't possibly be
worth noting academically, because you don't exist yet in a theoretical
framework.
Mind you, every group I've been a part of that has experienced this has
NOT been any kind of official organization - just a bunch of friends
that floated together for a while, then floated apart again after a while.
They have never been more than simply a bunch of articulate women who
already knew each other and felt comfortable talking with one another.
Simply put, these groups were always Friends With A Penchant For Chatting
Verbosely About Stuff. Stuff that happened to be fairly weighty
things like feminism, politics, current events, interspersed with
things that revealed our creativity and individuality like knitting,
television and other fun things.
And as groups of friends are wont to do, we sometimes drifted away from
each other after a time. There were no headquarters or gathering place,
except in email. There were no attempts to be an NGO or organization, or
an activist group. Every once in a while there might be the thought to
write a book (naturally, since everybody was verbose in writing online),
but Real Life was too busy and pulled us in too many directions to ever
complete projects like that together.
So long as we kept our conversations private and to ourselves we received
no guff for being ourselves and talking about what we did. But once we
decided to let other people in on what we'd said to each other, or what
we'd like to say to other people, to allow others to digest our
thoughts and be inspired (or annoyed) by proxy - well, then
almost everyone expected us to be an "organization" that could be
"joined". They were annoyed at the presence of our individual voices,
chiding us to be more generalized, anonymous and faceless so that we
better represented all women.
These were never disagreements with substance of what we'd said. The focus
was almost never on the opinions presented on those hot topics. No, the
focus of everyone's consternation was that we were talking about these
sorts of things as *gasp* individuals, without tomes of academic research
and fundraising drives. We dared to think of ourselves as a group, give
ourselves a silly name and chat about not-so-inane subjects without filing
first for non-profit status. As long as our existence as a group was
thought to be a joke (as in the case of one women's discussion group) or
so long as it was invisible, private and unknown to anyone else (as in the
case of 3rdwwwave until we shoved all our stuff onto a web site) then
everything was okay. We were either not to be taken seriously or we were
anonymous.
"Anonymous was a Woman".
Too often we think of women as Women. As one monolithic group, The Other
to Men, The Sisterhood. We are WE, and ONLY "We". We move and writhe as a
mass of anonymous females to create an entity called "Women". It is
"Women" who shall have hopes and desires and characteristics, not the
individual woman. And it is only "Women" who shall say what WE want, what
WE feel, or what WE experience.
The rare female who is recognized individually amidst the mass is deemed
to be A Representative of Women and therefore must be Teflon. You
shouldn't be able to stick a personality to her, else it not fit with
What Women Are or Should Be. She should be a non-individual, else any
argument she makes for Women be summarily rejected because she doesn't
represent all women. Women can only gather in smaller groups to chatter in
public if such chatter is inane, ignorable and trivial (or at least, only
about "womanly topics").
I abhor this. Maybe it's just individualistic me, or some naive notions of
mine, but I think this kind of thing is counterproductive and even quite
possibly a good weapon against women. I.e. unless a woman can be put on a
pedestal, she must belong to the nameless, faceless, all-are-the-same mass
of Women when confronting politics, religion, feminist issues and the
world around her. But that makes no sense, since so many of us women exist
in such different political and social environments. We have had different
experiences shape us, and so different perspectives have been formed.
Without recognizing the individual woman, her voice, perspective and
experience I don't think we can really continue to learn and move
ourselves forward.
I've always felt frustrated when I heard about nifty, brave and
pioneering women - AFTER they'd died. I've always been annoyed that women
who are analytical, geeky, or simply science-oriented find that all their
personality traits are deemed "male". I get fed up with black-and-white
only points of view when so many things are really shades of gray. I'm
tired of of the anonymity of women.
So "hear, hear" to all those individual women's voices out there in the
blogosphere. I'm not only happy to have met women I liked, but I'm happy
to have met women who annoy the hell out of me. I feel I am like you and
you and you, but unlike you and possibly you. That pleases me. Hang in
there, be yourself and keep talking to each other.